Divorce

My parents decided to seperate when I was 13?
It came at me out of the blue. We were at dinner at the club, one of my favourite places, and I went to the Kids Club as there were playstations there while they said they were going to play the pokies.
I was there for about 2 hrs - longer.... Enough that I was wondering where they could have gone.
They picked me up and I asked them if they had won anything. They had won about $100. We left. Everything seemed fine. Then in the car Dad suddenly said, 'Your mother and I have decided to break up.' I remember going cold. Feeling that awful lump rising in my throat.
Then my Mum said, 'so who do you want to live with, your father or me!?'
How is a 13 yr old suppose to reply to something like that?
I said I don't know. Even though I did. The car was silent alllllll the way home. -An hour trip.
It was one of the longest hours of my life. All I could think of was how I could possibly hurt one of them. What would happen.

I had a dilemma. My Mum was sick and couldn't work. I knew in situations like these the kid goes with the Mum, but I didn't want to. I had always been Dads girl. ALWAYS.
In my view Mum had been the one to cause the fights. Always complaining about the lack of money and Dad's money making ventures that seemed to always backfire.
I don't remember how I told them. Mum moved in with a friend, then a boyfriend.
Dad and I struggled on by ourselves.

Mum tried coming around to help clean up and take care of things, I didn't want to see her though, didn't ask for or want her help. I avoided her, how she was acting repulsed me. I still thought they would get back together though, they were only separated.